"My grace is sufficient for you.

for my power is is made perfect in weakness."  Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 

We need Christ's power.  This power, this "dunamis," is inherent in the very nature of God.  It is one of the riches of His glory that is available to us through the Spirit.   We need Christ's power to make it through the next few days.  We need Christ's power and so we will boast in our weakness.

In our weakness, we want to begin to withdraw.  We want to box off our emotions and do the necessary tasks to get Katya ready to go.  We want to pretend that Monday is not coming.  We want to do these things because we are too weak.  We're too weak to experience the loss ... and survive. 

We're too weak in ourselves, Lord.  We're too weak.  So please, Jesus, as you did for Paul, pour out your power upon us.  We're humbling ourselves beneath Your gaze because we are too weak to stand on our own.  In our flesh, we want to protect ourselves from the wrenching loss that we are facing.  But, by Your Spirit, we want to bare our hearts to fully engage and be a fleshly expression of your heart for Katya.  So pour out Your power upon us that our love for Katya would abound more and more in true knowledge and depth of insight.   And, Jesus, my mother's heart is breaking.  Protect her,  Jesus.  Protect her.